Diary Entry #2

Phew...it's been a really disturbing weekend for me. I think the idleness and the boredom is finally getting to me. I have an acquaintance who once told me that holidays aren't all that fun but I disagree with him. I believe that holidays without friends aren't all that fun. But even this time, only reading has been able to fill the emptiness that I feel while most of my friends are away. Maybe I should have been called up for National Service. Oh, well...

Yesterday was extremely quiet due to the Himpunan Kebangkitan Rakyat at Stadium Merdeka. I heard that there were a lot of people there. Thank God that there weren't any clashes between the police and the protesters. I really wish I was there. The previous Bersih, Bersih 2.0, had some violence, but...with my luck...I left before the violence started. Oh, well...

Last night, I had a dream. I dreamt of my dog...well, one of my dogs. But he died about a few months back. He was a brave dog and died protecting us from a monitor lizard. He received a poisonous bite on the side and I still remember the long hours of suffering he had to endure before he passed away. As doctors are reputed to say after exiting the surgical studio, 'we tried our best'. In that moment between dream and wakening, my confused mind was quite certain he was still alive. Then, memory returns and...Oh, well...

The Cthulhu Mythos is such a beastly tale. Modern terror and horror books and movies really have nothing on it. It really is scary, but I think that I will tell it to C-- the next time she asks me for a story. Haha! I'm simply evil. That is, if she ever does ask me for another story. I have a feeling my last one bored her to death although she played the attentive listener very well. Or maybe it's just me. Oh, well...

W-- called me on the phone yesterday. I didn't pick it up in time, but I tried calling him back. It forwarded to his voice-mail, and he called me back after that...=.=" Anyway, he seems to be enjoying himself in NS and well, I'm so glad he called me. He told me about some problems and that he thought of calling M--, but M-- was busy apparently, and of calling K--, but K-- is also in NS. Then, he thought of calling me. Haha! That was really touching. It's touching because I've never thought that anyone would count me as a trustworthy friend. Of course, next to W--, M-- has plenty a time proven that he thinks of me as a good friend, but I know someone who would not Skype with me alone (told to me in confidence from a a person I think of as a good friend; Haha!) and I know that many of my juniors think that I'm manipulative...Gee...Oh, well...

I read C--'s blog just now. I wish I could do something but until she comes online and asks for my advice or I feel good enough to offer it, I think I can only pray. I wonder if she works on Sundays too...probably, knowing the line of work she's in. Oh, well...