Of all the accursed things that could have happened today, came the least expected one. It was only a moment ago, having just watched a random episode of some random Korean drama, when my phone started to vibrate. I picked it up and noted the caller as well as the fact that I had several new messages. I sincerely wanted to read the messages first, not because I was expected any important ones, nor was it because I had a stable line of communication at the moment with any of my targets. It was rather because I really did not want to talk to whoever it was who was calling me.
I took a deep breath and hardened my heart and....MUAHAHAHA...the call ended!!
I rejoiced and my heart leaped for joy.
Then she called again...
Sigh...
What was said in the conversation does not matter, but I can now reassess my feelings. I suppose it might not prove to be a bad thing in the long run, but I really didn't want to speak to her at all. I've buried everything...everything. I've buried the memories, the connections, the messages, the now meaningless words. I've even buried the hatchet, so to speak.
And I've buried them for good.
Now, when I play the songs I used to play for her, I no longer think of her.
Now, when I sing the songs I used to sing to her, I no longer dream of her.
Now, when I think about the past, I no longer dwell on the memories of her.
To me, she is truly dead and gone.
And for me, this so-called Summer, it is a new beginning.
In my heart, it is Spring, for I feel that I am ready to love again.
Wish me all the luck I can get, boys, I'll need it.
Until next time...
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